Last Tuesday I started working as a substitute teacher just for a couple of weeks. The first class went perfectly fine, without any mishaps. I thought it was going to be the same way today too, but nope! I arrived at 5PM and waited till my students showed up; except nobody showed up! When my clock stroke 6PM, I decided to take off. To have waited for an hour for a class that lasts an hour and a half is enough, right?
Now, I could’ve spent that hour profitably and read a book maybe; I could’ve also written lots of checklists with things I need to do before I leave, but no, no, no … I just wasted my time staring at the wall and oh, yes, taking pictures and talking to myself (in my mind, not aloud; I’m not that crazy!). The first thing I asked myself was, “Are they not coming because I didn’t make a good impression on Tuesday?” I don’t want to brag, but I discarded that option pretty fast; they looked quite satisfied with my class. My next impulse was to think that this was actually a good thing, because, come on! I’ll be paid for not having done anything. Soon after that, I felt a bit guilty for getting money I don’t deserve. And later I thought, “Oh, no, but I do deserve it. I’ve come all the way here and prepared material for this class. I could be blogging or doing a million other things, but I’m here”. Guilt must have vanished super easily because the next thing I remember thinking is, “Why on earth did I buy a leather bag that is so ridiculously big?!” My mental reply was “I told you not to spend so much money on that, but hey! You always do whatever you want and not what I tell you to!” Silence.
Then I turned my head and looked at all the pictures that the employees’ children had made and hung where the whiteboard was supposed to be.
I walked a few steps and then I came up with a good reply to my mind, “You’re right about the bag, but these flats were a bargain and are incredibly comfy, so they totally make it up for the bag. There! I said it!”
And to cut a silly story even shorter than it actually is, I then took these nonsense pictures and that’s when I realized that I should have left a long time ago.
Hope you’ve spent your day more wisely! Sleep tight! -.-